Sunday, November 21, 2010

my squishy

Well, this blog usually follows my moods, or seasons in life, so…”I shall call him Squishy, and he will be mine.” (movie reference?! Anyone?!)

This is a ‘squishy’ subject for me. More so because I don’t like to touch it or go near it…like I don’t like to touch squishy things (like tomatoes when you’re canning…gross).

The subject is…[drumroll]….openness.

This=Kayla’s struggle. A major one.

As a person, I like to hold things in and try to deal with them on my own. Then when I think I have it mostly figured out, I reach out to those near me and reach out to the Lord. Wrong order. Completely wrong, but that’s how I work. As a Christian, that’s totally not what’s supposed to go down. Sad thing is, I know this in my heart, but do my actions really reflect that? Chances are I’m not the only one that goes through this cycle, that’s why I’m sharing.

First off, why am I afraid to run to the Lord and be open with Him? Trust. As a fallen person, trust is a tricky thing for me. But He is faithful, and I need to remember that.

  • Psalm 18:1-2—“I will love You, O LORD, my strength. The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” (NKJV)

  • Philippians 4:6—“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let you requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” (NKJV)

Also, community is so important. This is something that I’ve known to be so true in my life, but I still hesitate to reach out. As a wise friend said, “that’s what the body of Christ is for.” To hold each other up, struggle with them, keep them (me) accountable, and guide me through the squishy areas in life. The Lord has placed people in my life that can/have/and do help me tremendously….the question is…will I let them?

  • Romans 12:4-5—"For as we have many members in one body, but all the members do not have the same function, so we, being many, are one body in Christ, and individually members of one another." (NKJV)

What do you struggle with? How can (does) the Lord and the Godly people in your life sustain you?

p.s. :)